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I Didn’t Even Want to Live, But God Forced Me to Reincarnate!

Genres: Fantasy, Slice of Life, Comedy, Drama

Tags : Reincarnation, Female Protagonist, Age Progression, Sword and Magic

Status : Ongoing, active

Advanced chapter(s) available in Patreon!


Summary :

A duke’s daughter wanted nothing in her life but the sweet nothingness of death, as she felt like her life served no purpose. Her wish was granted when she was killed in an unfortunate accident, yet in a sudden turn of events, she was forced to reincarnate.

As fate has it, she was reborn in her original world, but not directly after her death. As she is living her new life, she tries to forget the pain of her old life. But, what exactly is behind her reincarnation? Will she be able to live her new life to the fullest?


April Fools Special Summary : (but it’s also accurate!)

I finally died! (*•̀ᴗ•́*)و ̑̑

Goodbye terrible life, goodbye family that didn’t want me in the first place.

Welcome, sweet nothingness of death!

…Wait a minute.

Why is god forcing someone like me to reincarnate? After all, I didn’t accomplish anything before my death.

And, was I reborn in the same world again? Well for now, let’s just see how my life goes, this time!

-by: This Novel’s Main Character-


Side series : Returning to the Other World with My Children, Also…?!


Table of Content :

PS: This story is hosted on several other platforms. Some platforms may have different chapter numbering/parting. Patreon’s advanced chapter numbering also uses this page’s chapter order.

Alternative Cover in CreativeNovel + CreativeNovel’s interview with me + Information on other platforms that host this novel

Or you can click here to begin reading this novel in CreativeNovel. PS: They have a library system that you can use as long as you register there~!



Indonesian translation by kidriz1412

Fan Art Section 


Phase 0 – Re:Birth


Phase 1 – Lyra

Arc 1 – Getting Used to This Peaceful Life

Arc 2 – Chinosato Arc

Arc 3 – Entering Academy Arc!


Extras :


Comment Away~!


    FINALLY FOUND IT AGAIN! Thank you for writing this god awesome story! One of the best original’s i’ve read in a while… time to dig in. Plis updates 😀

    • Thank you so much for your compliment and thanks for enjoying my original series ;___;/ I’ll be more active in updating it! Hope you will continue to enjoy the series ^o^/

      • It’s an original story?!… I thought it’s a translated light novel. I just found it randomly while searching for another translated story ( specially the transmigation or rebirth story). Anyway, it’s refreshing to read. The MC rebirth on the same universe that she lived before. She got a chance to meet her past family/relative which will give this story a twist. I mean, what will she do if she, by a chance meet them. That’s make me want to read more to find out.
        Well, keep the good work and good luck ❤️❤️
        ( PS. I’m not good in english. So excuse me, if I have wrong grammar)

        • LynneSuzuran

          October 8, 2018 at 9:06 pm

          Yup, it’s an original story XD
          It was mainly influenced by Japanese web/light novels, so perhaps that’s why some people thought that it’s similar to translated light novel.

          I’m glad to hear that! I also made the story while imagining about what if one were to reincarnate in the same world with past self’s acquaintances? And that’s how this story came to life :3

          Thanks for reading and I hope you’ll be able to enjoy the novel in the future, too!
          And your English is good! ^^

  2. I really like how you write your series its full of life and energy and as a rookie novelist I’d like to ask for some guidance in making a good piece as good as yours

    • LynneSuzuran

      April 8, 2018 at 5:42 am

      First of all, thanks for reading XD
      And I am also a newbie in terms of writing…
      I think in order to be able to write okay, you also have to read lots of novels.
      I was an avid reader back then, but often during reading, there was this feeling that went, “This novel is good, but I want to read a story where there is this, and that”. That motivated me to write this story!

      So, as far as I can say, read lots of stories and then try to write something that you will enjoy reading! ^^

  3. I’m absolutely in love with this story! The characters are interesting and most important of all Lyra is adorable! Keep up the amazing work, I can’t wait to read more!

    • LynneSuzuran

      May 7, 2018 at 8:01 am

      Aww, thank you very much for your kind words XD
      I also hope that I can write better as time goes by, and that hopefully you will continue to enjoy the story~!

  4. I randomly found this story today and decided to read it for no good reason without putting much thought into it. I’m glad I did because it became one of my favorites within a few chapters! I’m looking forwards to new chapters.

    • LynneSuzuran

      May 13, 2018 at 4:58 pm

      Thank you! Nothing makes me happier than hearing that from my readers ^^ I hope that you will continue to enjoy this series!

  5. read all the chapters today, was not too bad, better than some others, however i really dislike the patreon tier that lets you add something to the story, i love reading the authors/writers story i hate when they ask readers what they want…like in overlord when the author gave the readers a choice to kill a sweet girl whos only trying to save her family…of course the readers chose to kill her…well the ones who actually looked at the forum

    • LynneSuzuran

      June 17, 2018 at 1:55 am

      Ah, no, that tier’s supposed to let you add something minor like naming an item (like a potion’s name or a jewel’s name) or area (like Village A in the middle of the forest) or minor characters (like Villager A in a game) that might get mentioned in the story, but not that significant.

      The tier’s rewards of adding something to the story won’t ever change any of the major story or major items/details that I’ve thought of, so don’t worry about readers changing the course of story! I will stick up with the plotline I’ve thought of since the beginning. Hope that clears everything up ^^

      Also, thanks for reading and I hope you’ll continue to enjoy the story despite any flaw it might have ><

  6. I found this when i finished catch up with latest ” different world gender change”.
    And my impressions is, this is great, better than some wn with op and dense mc and too much culinary things. *bookmark* i look forward for new chapters 🙏

  7. I like the story. Is this on a monthly update?

    • LynneSuzuran

      September 24, 2018 at 2:21 am

      Thank you, I’m so happy that you like this story!
      This story is updated at least weekly, by the way! The current targeted schedule is 5 chapters per month ^^
      Hope you will continue to like this story!

  8. One of the best & original (apart from the reincarnation bit 😜) stories I’ve read so far!!
    Though one thing just doesn’t add up: Lyra’s world is kinda advanced both scientifically & magically, but they still use horse carriages for transport!!??

    • LynneSuzuran

      October 8, 2018 at 9:02 pm

      Thanks for your kind words!
      I love the premise of reincarnation after all >w< Ah, I think I really need to create a chapter specially dedicated to explain about their transportation or technology to clarify things? XD They actually also have mana-powered carriages~

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